A bit about the head Lotifar from my novel.
In addition to all his duties, Lotifar gave Peter a glimpse of what a typical day looks like for him. Many things became clearer to Peter after he saw with his own eyes how Lotifar saved six people from suicide. At the last moment, he inspired a man, who wanted to burn himself in front of the police station, to believe that life is sacred. Then he imperceptibly moved a girl’s arm while she was cutting her own veins, in the process only injuring herself harmlessly. Then he jumped into the Danube in order to save a suicide man from drowning near the Pancevac Bridge. On that occasion, the living witnesses thought that the drowning man was saved by some miracle, because, of course, they did not see Lotifar helping him to swim to the shore. Since there were so many suicides, he then simultaneously appeared in three different locations, in Bronks, Jerusalem and Odessa. In those situations, he dissuaded a teenage girl from jumping out of a window, an old woman from hanging herself, and a widow from drinking the poison.
That was Lotifar’s daily life, so the multitude of people he saved cannot be counted. If he predicted someone’s suicide, he would most often successfully prevent it. He was a master at creating different situations that divert a person from suicidal thoughts and plans. However, he was a little late in Minsk, because a middle-aged man, unfortunately, had already thrown himself from the terrace before he arrived. Lotifar is not perfect, and he never claimed to be, because only God is. He was also wrong in Peter’s case. There are so many suicides that Lotifar is unable to help everyone. His many assistants help him, and Petar had the opportunity to get to know one of them, Mark Tigraf.
Lotifar told Peter that many suicides are in a similar situation as his, but that there are also many more difficult cases. Everything depends on the psychological constitution of each individual, karma, as well as the weight of the motives that led them to commit suicide, but everyone goes through similar stages. Lotifar, of course, repeated that he does not condemn anyone, but that he has the right to grieve, so he reflected on what awaits suicides in the afterlife: – They have to spend there as much time in a state of agony and semi-consciousness as they were meant to live on Earth. At the very least, the suicide is followed by a new, and as a rule worse, round of incarnation on Earth, where he will be greeted by all the old problems and some new ones.
The consequences of suicide were, therefore, far deeper and more extensive than Petar could have imagined until then. First of all, because he killed himself, he ended up in the hell of Limbo. Doctor Lotifar explained to him that Limbo is a place of eternal twilight, in which multitudes of people wander in a semi-conscious or unconscious state, repeating the same or similar mistakes, while, as Petar noticed, they were not very different from living people. Limbo implies, said Lotifar, also attachment in spiritual development. You can neither go forward nor back, so the only salvation from there is seen in rebirth.
From Lotifar’s long and extensive stories about hell, Peter found out that he is in a special part of Limbo, in the so-called Kamaloka (as the Indians call it, although it has many other names), where suicides are kept until the time they are denied themselves to be alive. Kamaloka was not a physical place and was not limited by physical boundaries, but by a personal state of consciousness. No one prevented Petra from leaving Kamaloka, with the fact that independently, without the help of others, he could not go further than the place where the strength of his consciousness would reach. The suicide would, therefore, immediately return to that Kamaloka of his, if by any chance he had previously touched the very edge of the universe and seen the throne of God with his own eyes. During the past ten years, angels, elders, guardians, psychopomps, and even counter-intelligences, such as guru Vigel, added parts of their own energies, frequencies and powers, with which he managed to leave Kamaloka for a while, such as for example in Shanghai or the Lake Zavoj, but he could not leave it permanently.